I'm really bad at this part. I'm obsessive, ADHD, and diagnosed on the spectrum around the age of 28.
Sometimes I feel like every answer to any insane question is a search away. Other times I'm convinced I know almost nothing about mathematics, astronomy, or theoretical physics. They fascinate me, but often Im afraid I'm not learning anything.
Today, for example I read about studies involving high powered lasers capable of creating observable signals taking place at the scale of an attosecond.
That Lead to a fascination with atomic and quantum clocks, and how a day may exist in the future where I not only own lasers, but a quantum clock, that's a part of my quantum computer. It's exciting.
I'm not capable of absorbing every concept. I'm just not smart enough, but usually i'm pleasantly surprised. Often when reading papers on advanced concepts I'm able to follow through to the end.